You've returned

I see you've returned
The perpetual darkness that stunted the development of my happiness
The acrid putrefying mould than grew upon my soul
You've come back
You were gone
I was happy
But now

The cancerous infectious nature of you has spread throughout my core
Reaching to parts the sun never shone
But darkness knows too well
Leaching the positivity
Replacing with your hate
Self loathing

The disingenuous calm that proceeds your melancholic assault
Lures me deeper
Eyes closed In to the pleasure of dreams built in life
As you destroy nightmares from the depths of slumber
Dragging as their blackened nails claw helplessly against the moss strewn floor
Snapping and oozing with a gangrenous pus
You've found me again

The smile was too much for you
The light that spared behind the watery orbs made you sick
Made you spew your disgust and hate towards me
Forcing me to swallow it down into my swollen disgraceful stomach
Growing at the seam as I'm filled with the same

The same hate that caused scars from before
Left blood pooling, rich and metallic against stainless steel blades
Oxidised by description
You found me again

Will I ever be free of your malodorous stench that seeps into every pore of my wretched criss crossed skin
Will you release me to life
Or am I destined for death